A lot has changed. I've been here for... a while. My experiences have changed me. Being inside killing games where I'm a participant and not the mastermind has changed me. Being around good people and Kaito before you arrived has changed me.
So... yes. Even if you don't believe it, I am sorry.
I don't care. You killed people! Even I didn't do that and yet I was the one vilified and attacked for trying to help you stupid idiots!
[ He pushes himself up onto his hands and knees, shaky, but still glaring at her. ]
I suffered.. I lost people I liked because of you. I DIED Because of you!
And you want me to just accept your apology like that?!
How fucking DARE you...
[ And without warning, he lunges for her, reaching for her neck. He's small, but spry, and evidently full of a need for vengeance. For all he knows, Shuuichi is dead. And it's all her fault. Rantaro was dead. And it was all her fault. Gonta was dead. And it was all her fault. Kokichi was dead.
[She told herself she'd just let it happen. If he attacked her, if he maimed her, if he outright killed her... so be it. She deserved it. She was taking responsibility.
But then it actually starts to happen, and it turns out, even under the monster's influence, she's still a human who can only have a very human reaction to danger.
Fight or flight. This time it's flight.]
Aaaaa!
[She jumps back, right out of the way, barely, but she has to fall down to do so.]
[ What this might look like to an outside observer, he doesn't care. In a place where people apparently kill each other all the time with no apparent consequence? Shouldn't he get a turn?
He snarls, his tails flicking wildly and his eyes flashing dangerously, though whether that's the monster inside or Kokichi himself is hard to determine.
Even with the miss, Kokichi doesn't seem deterred. There's a scramble to right himself before he lunges again, claws thirsty to sink into her neck. ]
[ He doesn't quite expect to be stopped by a chair, and can't help but snarl and swipe at her. His monster inside has found an outlet out and it wants blood. Especially her blood. ]
LIAR!! You lied from the SECOND You met everyone and you expect me to think you've changed NOW?! I'll pull your apology out through your veins you traitorous BITCH!
[ He barely even seems to register that she's let her doppelganger out, focused solely on attacking her and getting his revenge. ]
[ He watches her clamber to a table, and he grits his teeth, ears back, tails flicking wildly. Maybe it's that he hasn't had this form all that long, or perhaps he's still tired from his ordeal, but blue flames flicker around him and quickly fade out. ]
It might not, but I'll feel better!
[ He finally rises to his feet and rushes at her, table be damned. ]
I was given a second chance to kill you!! I missed it before but I WON'T fucking miss this time!!
You took everything good away from me... It's only right I should get to take something from you!
[ Sure, she looks gross and disgusting, but he knows it's still her... sort of. ]
You didn't suffer. You died but you didn't get what you earned. I tried so hard... SO HARD to end your fucking game and still you let it continue until it destroyed everyone from the inside out. You think that can be forgiven?
HA! And you idiots thought I was the monster in all of it. I ached in agony as poison took my life and I got fucking crushed into a paste because of you. I was so close... SO CLOSE to destroying your game... but no.... You fixed it like the cheater you are.
That...
THAT is what I hate most about you.
You lied and cheated your way through the whole thing. You were never honest from the start. I can't fucking stand liars.
--Kokichi, get a grip! The audience had control of the game! They wouldn't have cared one bit if you proved Monokuma broke the rules! Even if I'd been killed or executed, the game would've continued somehow!
[and... her ichor begins to burn off a little, enough to let her upper body and face and hair reveal at least.]
But they way it finished, the audience changed... and so have I! I'm finally finding the strength to move on... telling you about all of this is proof! I could've just kept quiet and hid everything if I wanted!
But you're not at the whims of the audience!! You were in it for the love of the game! You LIVED to see us DIE!
[ He growls and lunges at her again, trying to skirt around the edge of the table to get to her and swipe at her. ]
Move on? MOVE ON?! Are you FUCKING KIDDING ME?!! How dare you ask that?!
I DIED in your stupid game! I'm glad my death helped kill it. That's all I wanted from the very start. To ruin your fun. I didn't know it was you specifically, but I knew I wanted it to hurt the mastermind and GUESS WHAT! Looks like I won.
[ His grin is wild and manic. He's unhinged. What else does he have to lose? Her pitiful cries for mercy mean nothing to him after all he's suffered. ]
Did you even feel anything when Yonaga-chan died? You were in her stupid little cult, after all. You let her believe that you believed in what she was saying... And people thought I was the bad guy?
You're the worst. The absolute WORST! Everyone would be better off if you were a pile of entrails..
[Okay, that one actually is enough to get a swipe of her midsection, leaving her wincing in pain and sending blood/ichor off. She turns and jumps over the counter, next, aided by her height, at least.]
--I'm not denying anything you say! What I am denying is that I haven't changed... You can't kill the mastermind after she's already died! If you kill me now, my friends and teammates will mourn my death... including Kaito... is that what you want!?
[ Kokichi tries to follow her by leaping over the counter, but thankfully for her, his naturally short stature only has him making it about halfway and clawing at the countertop in her direction. ]
I don't care about killing the mastermind! I care about killing YOU!
[ The idea of her teammates mourning her does give him pause. And Kaito too? He's not furious with her like he is?? He groans and slips from the counter a bit. ]
[her body stops dripping until she's fully back to being Tsumugi. Her side does have rip marks in her shirt and claw marks along her torso.]
Maybe... but yes. A lot of people know by now. The whole truth. Enough to understand what kind of person I was. The kind I thought I still was. ...I came here to finally take the last step and let you know, because you were the one most likely to attack... and I'd go ahead and let you.
[ He is a little surprised to see her bleeding.. he hadn't actually thought he'd gotten her yet, and it does give him a faint sense of satisfaction to see the damage he'd done. ]
You don't have to. Just stand there while I crush your throat and you can let everyone think you died a tragic death!
[ He gives a cruel, half-manic laugh before he decides to round the counter instead. ]
How many people have you told about what you did? Does anyone know what a horrible sadist you are?
[...okay swearing wasn't Tsumugi's strong point. She waits until he's about to get around the corner and then jumps back over the counter again. One skip ahead of my doom...]
[ He snarls when she jumps back over, considering chasing her back around, but instead starts picking up glasses and cutlery, throwing them in her direction instead. It's pathetic, it's petulant, and even he starts to see that his lashing out is little more than a child throwing a tantrum.
A righteous tantrum, but still.
After a few fistfuls of glass, pointy steel, and even a plate or two getting weakly thrown at her feet, he finally collapses into his arms, too overwhelmed and full of headache to continue. ]
[The throwing gets a surprised yelp as she practically tap-dances away from the thrown kitchenware. Then... breathing when she sees he's worn himself out.]
...
[Well... what a nice thing to say. Though she was at a loss how to respond without sounding patronizing.]
[the words hurt. They hurt tremendously. At least now.]
All I can say is I was wrong. I saw you all as 'things' instead of people. Not exactly pawns, but characters without actors. To be arranged and made to act out scenes.
But that's not how I feel now. I know I've hurt... people. A lot of people. I wish I could go back and undo it, but... I can't.
So I don't.. I don't understand what changed? What could have possibly changed that made you actually change your mind? You were willing to throw your life away for that stupid game...
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Date: 2023-02-17 07:16 am (UTC)So... yes. Even if you don't believe it, I am sorry.
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Date: 2023-02-17 07:23 am (UTC)[ He pushes himself up onto his hands and knees, shaky, but still glaring at her. ]
I suffered.. I lost people I liked because of you. I DIED Because of you!
And you want me to just accept your apology like that?!
How fucking DARE you...
[ And without warning, he lunges for her, reaching for her neck. He's small, but spry, and evidently full of a need for vengeance. For all he knows, Shuuichi is dead. And it's all her fault. Rantaro was dead. And it was all her fault. Gonta was dead. And it was all her fault. Kokichi was dead.
All.
Her.
Fault. ]
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Date: 2023-02-17 07:33 am (UTC)But then it actually starts to happen, and it turns out, even under the monster's influence, she's still a human who can only have a very human reaction to danger.
Fight or flight. This time it's flight.]
Aaaaa!
[She jumps back, right out of the way, barely, but she has to fall down to do so.]
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Date: 2023-02-17 07:38 am (UTC)He snarls, his tails flicking wildly and his eyes flashing dangerously, though whether that's the monster inside or Kokichi himself is hard to determine.
Even with the miss, Kokichi doesn't seem deterred. There's a scramble to right himself before he lunges again, claws thirsty to sink into her neck. ]
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Date: 2023-02-17 08:49 am (UTC)Kokichi! Stop this!
[she finds a chair leg, and somehow brings it around to put it between her and him, giving her a little bit of time to start to climb up to her feet.]
I've... I've already told Kaito! I've told many people! I am changing!
[--ironic words, perhaps, given her slightly more tar-like state.]
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Date: 2023-02-17 08:56 am (UTC)LIAR!! You lied from the SECOND You met everyone and you expect me to think you've changed NOW?! I'll pull your apology out through your veins you traitorous BITCH!
[ He barely even seems to register that she's let her doppelganger out, focused solely on attacking her and getting his revenge. ]
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Date: 2023-02-17 09:02 am (UTC)This was escalating quickly.]
I know, but killing me now is not going to change anything either!
[she doesn't want to provoke him, so she doesn't want to outright shove the table at him, but she's doing her best to keep light on her feet.]
We were given a second chance!
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Date: 2023-02-17 09:09 am (UTC)It might not, but I'll feel better!
[ He finally rises to his feet and rushes at her, table be damned. ]
I was given a second chance to kill you!! I missed it before but I WON'T fucking miss this time!!
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Date: 2023-02-17 09:13 am (UTC)[bubbles are literally bursting out from under her skin like water reaching a boiling point, but she's still decidedly 'tsumugi-looking']
The killing game ended! I died a pathetic death... you got to see it!
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Date: 2023-02-17 09:20 am (UTC)[ Sure, she looks gross and disgusting, but he knows it's still her... sort of. ]
You didn't suffer. You died but you didn't get what you earned. I tried so hard... SO HARD to end your fucking game and still you let it continue until it destroyed everyone from the inside out. You think that can be forgiven?
HA! And you idiots thought I was the monster in all of it. I ached in agony as poison took my life and I got fucking crushed into a paste because of you. I was so close... SO CLOSE to destroying your game... but no.... You fixed it like the cheater you are.
That...
THAT is what I hate most about you.
You lied and cheated your way through the whole thing. You were never honest from the start. I can't fucking stand liars.
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Date: 2023-02-17 09:31 am (UTC)[and... her ichor begins to burn off a little, enough to let her upper body and face and hair reveal at least.]
But they way it finished, the audience changed... and so have I! I'm finally finding the strength to move on... telling you about all of this is proof! I could've just kept quiet and hid everything if I wanted!
Are you going to be able to move on, Kokichi!?
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Date: 2023-02-17 09:38 am (UTC)[ He growls and lunges at her again, trying to skirt around the edge of the table to get to her and swipe at her. ]
Move on? MOVE ON?! Are you FUCKING KIDDING ME?!! How dare you ask that?!
I DIED in your stupid game! I'm glad my death helped kill it. That's all I wanted from the very start. To ruin your fun. I didn't know it was you specifically, but I knew I wanted it to hurt the mastermind and GUESS WHAT! Looks like I won.
[ His grin is wild and manic. He's unhinged. What else does he have to lose? Her pitiful cries for mercy mean nothing to him after all he's suffered. ]
Did you even feel anything when Yonaga-chan died? You were in her stupid little cult, after all. You let her believe that you believed in what she was saying... And people thought I was the bad guy?
You're the worst. The absolute WORST! Everyone would be better off if you were a pile of entrails..
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Date: 2023-02-17 09:45 am (UTC)[Okay, that one actually is enough to get a swipe of her midsection, leaving her wincing in pain and sending blood/ichor off. She turns and jumps over the counter, next, aided by her height, at least.]
--I'm not denying anything you say! What I am denying is that I haven't changed... You can't kill the mastermind after she's already died! If you kill me now, my friends and teammates will mourn my death... including Kaito... is that what you want!?
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Date: 2023-02-17 09:52 am (UTC)I don't care about killing the mastermind! I care about killing YOU!
[ The idea of her teammates mourning her does give him pause. And Kaito too? He's not furious with her like he is?? He groans and slips from the counter a bit. ]
You haven't paid. You haven't paid enough...
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Date: 2023-02-17 10:01 am (UTC)[her body stops dripping until she's fully back to being Tsumugi. Her side does have rip marks in her shirt and claw marks along her torso.]
Maybe... but yes. A lot of people know by now. The whole truth. Enough to understand what kind of person I was. The kind I thought I still was. ...I came here to finally take the last step and let you know, because you were the one most likely to attack... and I'd go ahead and let you.
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Date: 2023-02-17 10:03 am (UTC)I'm not going to let you steal my redemption from me! I don't have to play the role of 'defeated villain who has nothing left to live for!'
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Date: 2023-02-18 03:39 am (UTC)You don't have to. Just stand there while I crush your throat and you can let everyone think you died a tragic death!
[ He gives a cruel, half-manic laugh before he decides to round the counter instead. ]
How many people have you told about what you did? Does anyone know what a horrible sadist you are?
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Date: 2023-02-18 03:48 am (UTC)[...okay swearing wasn't Tsumugi's strong point. She waits until he's about to get around the corner and then jumps back over the counter again. One skip ahead of my doom...]
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Date: 2023-02-18 03:57 am (UTC)A righteous tantrum, but still.
After a few fistfuls of glass, pointy steel, and even a plate or two getting weakly thrown at her feet, he finally collapses into his arms, too overwhelmed and full of headache to continue. ]
I hate you... I hate you so much..
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Date: 2023-02-18 04:13 am (UTC)...
[Well... what a nice thing to say. Though she was at a loss how to respond without sounding patronizing.]
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Date: 2023-02-18 04:15 am (UTC)You're a goddamn psychopath, you know that? How could you do that...? They trusted you..
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Date: 2023-02-18 04:29 am (UTC)[the words hurt. They hurt tremendously. At least now.]
All I can say is I was wrong. I saw you all as 'things' instead of people. Not exactly pawns, but characters without actors. To be arranged and made to act out scenes.
But that's not how I feel now. I know I've hurt... people. A lot of people. I wish I could go back and undo it, but... I can't.
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Date: 2023-02-18 04:32 am (UTC)I don't understand. Make me understand!
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Date: 2023-02-18 05:05 am (UTC)Momota-chan?? You gave him a disease and watched him die.
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